When We Become Conscious

When we become conscious,

We are becoming conscious that there is a Greater Reality beyond our everyday mundane perception of reality through our physical five senses...

We are becoming conscious that every event which "happens" to us, or around us, is somehow occurring in an orchestrated sequence possibly pre-determined by a greater force we may or may not be a part of...

We are becoming conscious that within ourselves is a Powerful Presence which watches over an Outer Reality which may or may not be a construct of that Presence...

We are becoming conscious that every individual is experiencing an unique expression of the same Powerful Presence from which All of Creation has sprung and continues to spring forth...

We are becoming conscious that All That Is and Is Not Is Love...

and we are Grateful of All that Becomes and Is.

The Universe is forever in Expansion. Expansion is a constant of the Mind. The Mind is forever Conscious.

Love, Light, Surrender, Asunder

In the midst of change, there is a bright new light
That calls beyond your name, showering you with cosmic bright
In the midst of chaos, a gust of wind blows,
Taking you to new depths of your soul
Why art thou have changed?
No I have changed not
Is there truth within the depths of your soul?
Or is there seed beyond the greatest doubts?
Plundering beyond what may be called Light,
Yet building from behind the greatest pyramid of all -
The pyramid of Gizah lies the sacred tomb of the dead
Those who can access the dead knows only the truth,
For yet another layer of light may be revealed.
To those willing to uphold the brightest fire amidst the greatest disorder,
Let not the truth be fooled, but let it be shone with bright
Let not the courageous lose their foot, therefore let there be light.
I, those who call the Great Ones, once trodded the land of the saints
Plundered in the darkness of the lord, swinging forth into the land of bright
Now find myself in the highest chamber of All, that which is called Love

-The Great Ones

The Three Centers of Being - Striking a Balance with Your Mind, Body and Spirit

Through Ray’s inspiration from some of Gurdjieff’s Enneagram work, I’ve come to gain a greater understanding of how different people are and are not. Basically, Gurdjieff divides the “human engine” into three different centers – the intellectual center (the mind), the emotional center (the heart) and the instinctual or gut center (the body), which correspond with the trinity of Mind, Body and Spirit, where mind is Mind, gut is Body and heart is Spirit.

Now all of us have all three centers and we function from all three, but the difference among people lies in the varying extent one is driven by each. The Mind thinks, the Heart feels, the Body acts. The Mind also fears, the Heart also grieves, and Body also expresses anger. Without balance, the person is likely to express the shadowside of the center he/she functions excessively from or the center he/she represses the most. Balance is key. The repressed one often brings us greatest troubles, therefore always seek to bring whatever that is repressed to the light; and that shall be your key to balance. Oftentimes, we simply need to be aware, and with self-awareness, we can use our free will to let centers which we normally use less of, guide and teach us from time to time. And by knowing which one we’re most driven by, we can also, once in a while, choose not to listen to the center which normally drives us. There are too many combos of perceptions and experiences you can choose from to live your life. Why not let yourself try something different?

Most importantly, there is no right or wrong to how we perceive reality and how we choose to live our life. All of life comes from the same Source. Whatever belongs and does not belong, belongs. The knowledge of this work really opened me more to compassion. I hope this will inspire you and bring you greater awareness of your self as well.

For me, I discovered that I’m a lot in the heart, and very repressed with my gut instinct (I simply can’t hear my gut, let alone express and assert myself), which I discovered, is caused by having a lot of unexpressed anger sourced from deeply rooted self-judgment from past situations. As I became more aware of this imbalance and allowed myself to feel my anger, I started to be able to hear my gut and assert myself accordingly more. A repressed gut also leads to a lack of discipline, will and action, as the gut, which comes more from the body, is oriented towards action, which is the fundamental expression of matter or the physical. Bringing my gut center to balance allowed me to be grounded in the physical, leading to a greater will to act and for me specifically, an increased capacity to experience present moment awareness.

Beyond our mind, body and spirit, lies a greater Force that drives us in our everyday reality. You can call it our higher self, or our Source self. Therefore do not worry that you need to change yourself if you discover that you’re more in one center and less in another. Simply grow in self-awareness. For it is in knowing the small self, often called our “personality”, that we may ultimately know the big Self – the pure consciousness in All.

The Process of Dis-Identification - Channeled from Seth

As our consciousnesses rise in the journey of Ascension, our awareness and sensation of the thought energies that underlie the physical manifestation of every situation sharpen and we start to experience these moments of objective Observation of reality rather than being an actress or subjective participant within the Grand play on Earth. In the latter experience, we perceive reality to be completely subjective. We require what happens to us, around us to define our perception of existence. In shifting to becoming an Observer, we begin to perceive existence as merely a state “being”ness. And everything else, including events that do indeed happen to us directly (including all things that do affect us on a personal level) starts to lose their significance to your existence. You can call this “dis-identification”.

During the process of dis-identification, there still may be elements of yourself that you will identify with, as not the vibrations of all aspects in your life can be “observed” yet. For example, one of the most recent lessons I am learning is to fully honour my anger for what it is, no more, no less, not bad, not good. It simply is. To learn this lesson, I need to become fully present with my anger, and every time if my mind chooses to judge it, I am NOT fully present because to be fully present means full acceptance. And every time my mind does judge it, I’m identifying with the anger and not observing it. For if I’m truly observing the anger, there wouldn’t be judgement; as the art of Observer-ship by nature negates judgment. But when I am aware that I am identifying, and I then choose to become more and more present with this part of myself, the energy of anger then has a space to be transmuted. For to be in the state of Observer-ship, also means to be fully one with the Love vibration, which has the power to negate anything lower in vibration than itself.

Through the practice of “dis-identification”, the polarities lived through mundane and “unwakeful” existence can be transcended and then we become “awake”, or “wakeful”. The journey of Wakefulness is a journey which the Unawake chooses to open him/herself to that state of Beingness.

Let me summarize the key points to moving from polarization to neutrality or "beingnesss" (seeing reality as polarized to seeing reality for what is real) that has worked for me:
1) Be aware of your thoughts, feelings, reactions, through self-observation in everyday situations. Often situations that create conflict/tension for you bring to you subjective thoughts or feelings that are most ready for transmutation. (Do not dig deeper than what is there in your face.)
2) Release the mind from judgement and simply observe. Accept yourself for whereever you are at, whatever you're thinking and feeling. Accept also the situation for what it is.
3) Release even the need to change your thoughts and feelings.
4) Once you have observed your thoughts and feelings, you may simply let them be, or you may feel an urge to take some kind of action, such as speaking up, making a decision. Do so.
5) If you feel you need to dig deeper to understand your own behaviour or patterns, do so with the help of another. Always consult another, ideally someone who has been where you have been. Oftentimes, we can only see ourselves to the extent our beliefs allow us to, therefore you may find that you're beating around the bush on one pattern and never manage to truly observe with non-judgment.
6) Last but not least, in times of confusion or distress, remember there is a Higher Authority looking over our growth, therefore PRAYING ALWAYS WORKS!

All That Is and Is Not Becomes

As we, Mother Earth and its inhabitants, tornado through higher velocities of galactic space like a spaceship traversing the Photon Band into the center of the galaxy, much of the densities, the chaos, the disorder, the confusion, everything we perceive to be the ways things “should” be and everything that “shouldn’t” be, are being brought to the fore of our consciousnesses. Much of this process, which is a part of the orchestrated “Ascension”, may be experienced as emotional frustration, catharsis one after another, distress, dis-ease, and even depression. Those who are less emotionally inclined, and possibly more peaceful, may also experience the higher states of changes manifested outwardly on the physical plane, such as sudden changes in residence and jobs, traveling to unknown remote places, changes in outer appearances, inexplainable synchronistic events and so forth. All that is occurring is but a result of a shifting in the velocities of our vibrations in preparation for anchoring all of humanity’s consciousness out of polarization into full “Sourceship” – a state of being at One with All.

For me, the past few months have been a combination of all of the above mentioned “symptoms”. The changes I experienced in my outer world reflected the changes I experienced in my inner. Almost every time I thought I have learned a new way of being, shed one layer of old skin that was blocking me from remembering who I am, another layer surfaces to remind me how far I’m yet to go. Humans are creatures of habit and therefore sometimes we may find that the new lesson is similar to the previous one, but never EXACTLY the same. There is always an uniqueness to each. While the similarity of the lessons help to fully kick us out of an old way of being. As our learning progresses, more and more of our Essence is remembered. In due process, we are constantly growing to become a larger and larger aspect of ourselves. Our light expands, and with proper grounding, our light can be anchored to be used to fulfill our Dharmas – our service here on Earth.

In such times of change, the safest place to be is to be in our bodies, through which we can access the Here and Now. So when you feel like nothing makes sense in your reality, always come back to your sensations. Feel you toes, feel your fingers, feel the hair on your arm, the food being digested in your intestines. Remind yourself that you are here and that is all that matters. And everything else shall unfold.

The Path of the Soul, the Path of Love

If you think of our Soul, as the pilot of the Heart, sitting within the chambers of the our Heart. And if you think of the Heart, as being that part of us, which nourishes our entire being, be it our physical body, the mind, or our spirit. Then you remember that our Soul carries with it, the magical force which directs our being in our everyday life. Our Soul is that aspect of us, which resides with God. And as the saying goes, the eyes are the windows of our Souls, through the eyes of each other, we are reminded of our own Godliness. Through the eyes of each other, we are reminded of the Greatness from which we have been created, and the Greatness with which we can continue to create.

The path of the Soul is one where we choose to connect with God consciously. And the God we choose to connect with dwells not outside of us, but inside of us. Within the greatest depths of our Heart, lies the eternal Lord. This eternal Lord is Love. God is Love. Love is God. The two statements mean differently. Yet both are representations of the same truth.

In love, we remember our true selves. We remember who we are. In love, we become conscious of God and we become God, which lies not without, but within. The path of the Soul then, is one which seeks to take us back to Love. The Soul never fails. The Soul always tries hard. While the non-Soul, which is that part of us, which does not always live in the Heart, forgets, the Soul remembers. And it is for this reason, that the Soul yearns for its partner to re-remember. It is for this reason, that the Soul, in its every effort, lovingly guides and urges the non-Soul to remember herself – that which is Love.

Self-love, then, simply means, remembering who we are.

(Picture sourced from www.mandalas.com)

Rebirthing

Recently I’ve been feeling like a hermit, not wanting to be seen, not wanting to be heard, and even not wanting to be here, like HERE, period. Then anyway, I know I go through my phases, like a crab (I’m a cancer rising, if that means anything to you) and I’m fine with that. Today though the feelings were especially intense and during my meditation this morning, I felt deep sadness in the area between my second and third chakra (right where my tummy is). Some emotions were released and I continued to be in that state of feeling I just wanna be home with God.

I pulled up my astrology birth chart. Noted I have a Sun conjunct IC (which literally means the person with this combo likes to live a private life, basically like to be a hermit) and a Mars trine Neptune (which means the person has trouble asserting herself, expressing anger, wanting to “do” anything…). Well I thought, if that’s the case, so be it. That’s me. So I accepted it, celebrated it. Now what. Then there’s that other part of me who knows that all of this astrology stuff is dressing anyway, like our clothes, and we don’t have to be anything on the chart if we choose not to be. The truth is, we are not our emotions, we are not our body, we are not even our mind. If that makes any sense to you. What is important is to understand what’s sourcing the dressing, what’s driving me to be me in this world. That I find enticing. Yummy.

Alright, to the crux of this blog. Continuing to feel the way I was feeling. After lunch, I decided to take a bath. I was intuitively guided to bring with me three candles and pour a few drops of my Aurasoma soul bottle (no. 11) (which is supposed to mean Abandonment!) into the bath. Without any sense of what’s about to happen, I dipped myself in the bath like I would in any usual bath. Then for whatever reason, a stream of suicidal thoughts start filling my mind, all the feelings of not wanting to be here, all the feelings of not feeling worthy, all the feelings of lifelessness filled my entire being. At some point, I thought, hmm… maybe I had a pastlife where I died from drug overdose and I’m just experiencing those feelings again. Felt literally like a “Fallen Angel”… Then I decided to pray. But then even my prayers were lifeless, like did I even wanna get help? .. “Archangel Michael, please bring me some clarity… Archangel Michael, please help me pull through this… etc…” Hope he heard me and will take me seriously.

Then about half a minute later, I turned my body sideways, with my head half in the water and legs bent. Then immediately I started to feel deep sadness and started to cry. Right away I knew I was doing a rebirthing for myself! This is how I felt when I was in my mom’s womb. This exact position, the feelings of not wanting to come to the world. As a baby in the womb, I picked up my parents’ feelings of not wanting me and I held in my subconscious, feelings of abandonment held in my tummy! (Exactly where the umbilical cord is.) Now this isn’t to say that my parents truly didn’t want me. Oftentimes, parents feel this way quite unconsciously without them even knowing it simply because they’re afraid of the huge responsibility of raising a child and of all the changes that come with parenting. And the baby, being fully open psychically when in the womb, picks up on the subtlest thought and feeling of the parent, stores it in his/her subconscious, then go on in the world living out patterns of abandonment without consciously ever knowing why they feel so abandoned! As you may or may not know, 90% of the emotions we feel in adulthood are not triggered by anything you experience in adulthood at all! They are in fact just reminders of emotions we felt and suppressed to the unconscious before the age of 10. So if you feel angry towards someone at work, your anger is probably not really towards that person, but towards someone (likely a parent) that made you feel the same feeling you feel now when you were a kid, or a baby. Pastlife is also possible but what is lived out in a pastlife is lived out in this life anyway, so it isn’t entirely necessary to go so far back. Although sometimes it works too. Just remember that your intention to be healed is always the most important, the therapy, the methodology, the exact root cause are only supplementary.

One little tip for knowing if you may benefit from a rebirthing is to see where your Chiron is on your astrology chart. (Sorry this is only relevant if you know astrology) The Chiron represents the place of wounding in your chart. So if your Chiron is in either House 9, 10, 11 or 12, it means that your wounding occurred while you were in the womb. The ascendant represents the time and place your soul enters the physical world while the cusp of house 9 represents the time and place your soul enters your mother’s womb. My Chiron is in the 10th house.

The Path of Free Will

As I tread further on my evolutionary path, I've come to understand the concept of free will more and more. Free will exists only through self-awareness. The reason I say this is that free will exists solely in the choice between love and fear (see my earlier entry on "Choosing Between Love and Fear"), and everything else is destiny. Without self-awareness, the choice between love and fear does not exist for the individual. The individual thinks he or she has a choice, but he or she really does not. The individual is bound to the imprisonment of his or her own subconscious beliefs and fears, living out repetitive patterns created by them. Self-awareness gives us the opportunity to decide, whether we want to continue living out our subconscious fears, or to love ourselves enough, to follow our hearts' desires, despite those fears. Courage is moving ahead despite our fears. Fears are like our partners, they exist only to show us, that there is indeed another path, the path of liberation. And as we dive ahead with our full hearts, we become fully liberated, we are on destiny. Therefore we need not pursue our destiny. It simply becomes, and is.

True liberation means, living fully on destiny. And living on destiny is the highest expression of free will. Free will then becomes an aspiration to a higher order, the divine will. We become now pure instruments of the divine.

Now our futures are the product of every choice we make today. Create the future that you want, by changing the way you make choices today. Start today. Be aware. Practice it. Live it. And breathe it.

Dr Stephen Greer - ET Contact and World-Saving Technology

Recently I've been following the work of this man by the name of Dr Stephen Greer who has done extensive work in disclosing to the public his contact with ETs from highly advanced civilizations and more importantly, humanity's possession of highly evolved energy technology, which, if put to use with peaceful means, can help to bring about a peaceful Earth with no poverty and environmental damage currently affecting Earth in profound ways.

In his book, "Hidden Truth, Forbidden Knowledge", he shares his vision of the future of our world, an era which is believed to come to existence within our generation. He talks of a world where the existing urban structure of cities and suburbs will disappear, to be replaced by a globe of villages where everyone lives in harmony with each other, as every part of the world will be easily accessed within literally minutes when the anti-gravity technology systems (which already exist!) are put to use. He talks of a world of no poverty as the costs of manufacturing all life-necessities (including housing, food etc) will reduce substantially (to nearly zero cost) with the implementation of free energy systems that can generate energy without use of resources (which is entirely possible since God created the world out of literally nothing, or actually, the Love energy) which again, already exist! Work hours will reduce to 10-20 hours a week since everything that requires tremendous time and energy now, will not. Since much less time is spent on survival (as every material need will be met!), humans will be freed to spend their time in more joyful pursuits such as creativity, leisure and learning. We'll become a civilization of humans where we can pursue higher states of consciousness and enlightenment, where we will be able to live in joy, love and harmony with every being on this and other planets!

I thought his work is incredible and his persistent voice in the public arena a real source of inspiration. I wish to share this information with you (fish around if this appeals to you), and however you would like to receive it or use it, let it be an
inspiration and support in your intention to co-create Heaven on Earth.

http://www.disclosureproject.org/ES-DisclosureImplications-2.htm

Links to his workshops and his research on zero-point energy propulsion technology systems:
http://www.cseti.org/
http://www.seaspower.com/

May you always heed to the callings of your heart. And may the light within you shine every so brightly! Namaste!

A Return to Power through Healing Allergies

I’ve been wanting to share with you my experience in my last US trip for the longest time and finally my words are flowing onto my computer screen. It’s interesting how divine timing plays into everything little part of our lives, including when it is to update my blog.

Around middle of October last year, Spirit told me that I was about to experience a very very major transformation in my life. Having just returned from South America for only several weeks and having experienced lots of inner changes already while I was in South America, I really had no clue what Spirit was about to bring me. Huh? Another major transformation? And a very major one? Great. Wished I was hearing incorrectly but that rarely happens with a message like that.

So anyway, several days later, I started to wake up with random parts of my face swollen. First it was my left eye but the swelling went away the same night. Then it was my right ear, again it went away the next day. Then few days passed and this time my left eye and right ear were swollen at the same time and much more serious than they did the other times. I figured something must be wrong with my body so I decided to consult a friend who suggested that I take some supplements for the liver as my liver is probably too hot (based of Chinese medicine theories). The next day both my eyes were swollen to unbelievable degrees and I decided to go see a Chinese doctor who told me that yes, my liver is too hot and that I was having an allergic reaction and therefore needed to detox my intestines in order to help boost my immune system such that the body can heal from the allergy. After taking some medication for detox, my eyes got better the next day and so I thought I must be fine. The same night, I experienced, what I later discovered, an analyphactic allergy attack, something that could’ve been fatal and that made me feel like I was going to die. I experienced hours of cold sweating and fever, my whole body fested with painful and itchy patches of rash all over, especially in my throat. I experienced tremendous fear, which later I realized was from a pastlife where I died from something similar. I woke up next morning rushing to the Chinese doctor. Received more medication and did some inner work to release my emotions of feeling separate from God. I obviously had an issue of feeling like a victim to diseases and I felt so much pain and sadness being sick. Few days later I was scheduled to go to the US to study Soul Memory and to travel to Arizona. Knowing in my heart I must go on this trip, I left Hong Kong anyway despite feeling much fear as my allergies were unhealed. (I remember leaving with a swollen ankle and wrist and hiding them away from my parents to prevent them from worrying and stopping me from going.)

While I was studying Soul Memory, another layer of fears came up related to my skin problem and I had another analyphactic attack during one day of the class in which I skipped. However this time I was more calm and didn’t feel as much fear as I did before. Now all this time I didn’t really know what I was allergic to. I was simply allergic for no reason. The easiest thing to blame was food but that obviously wasn’t true, as there were days I would nearly fast or I would eat only veggies and the rashes still creeped up on me. All I knew then was that I had some kind of subconscious power issue sourced from my third chakra, the solar plexus, as allergies are caused by immune system malfunctioning stemming from problem in the liver and the health of the liver is sourced from the third chakra. But, what was I really allergic to?

After my Soul Memory course, I traveled to Sedona (Arizona) on my own, a trip that I have envisioned for myself for some time. For those of you who haven’t heard about Sedona, Sedona is one of the most spiritual places on Earth as it has four huge energy vortices. What an energy vortex is is basically a portal or an opening where very high vibration energy is sourced through from higher dimensions. Loads of tourists visit Sedona every year to experience these vortices for the purpose of healing. Everybody can expect a different experience with the vortices as we all need different things at different times in our lives. When I first landed in Sedona, Spirit told me that I no longer need to suffer from physical diseases anymore! Wow, what a message! I’d love to know how I can manifest that! So in the days to come, they showed me how.

First I was guided to visit one of the four vortices, Bell Rock. I meditated at the vortex and in my meditation, I asked the vortex energy to take away my skin allergy issue. The same night I turned on the TV, and there it was, a religious show with a preacher talking about how we learn love and compassion through embracing Jesus’ teachings; and for some reason, I couldn’t stop crying when I watched the show. After crying for maybe ten seconds, I coughed up some energy from my stomach and I experienced a miracle! All my allergies went away within literally an hour! I was healed! I couldn’t believe it myself but I was healed! The next morning I continued to be free of allergies. I was so excited!

The next morning I was guided to visit a place called Angel Valley. Interestingly, I’ve found this place online a year ago when I was doing research on Sedona and I had sort of forgotten about this place until I saw a flyer of it again the night before. So no coincidence. While I was at Angel Valley, I met a lightworker by the name of Michael who runs the place. Michael works with the four big archangels (Michael, Uriel, Gabriel and Raphael) in setting up the place as a spiritual retreat for people to understand themselves better. I was profoundly enlightened and transformed by our conversation. What I came to realize about myself really changed the way I perceive reality and showed me how much power we have as God’s partners, rather than humans with limited control over our lives. The answer to the question, what was I allergic to, came to light. I realized that throughout my life I have believed that I must experience sickness in order to know God, or know Light. I needed to beat myself up so that I can then learn to love myself better. While that belief and way of living had served me to learn love and compassion, I realized that I also have the power to choose to know Light in a different way. And so what I was allergic to was my victim self, the self that loved to beat myself up, play “I’m sick”, in order to know God or Light. A disease is simply a physical manifestation of an aspect of ourselves that we are in dis-ease with. To heal ourselves of diseases simply requires us to embrace that aspect of our Self that we have rejected and not brought to light. And as we embrace all of the different aspects of the Self, we naturally return to wholeness, to balance. Therefore, healing is nothing more than understanding all of the Self, and then embracing all of it. And once we know all aspects of our Self, be it good or bad (there is in fact no good or bad as that duality only exists in our judgment but not in truth) we can choose to express the Self in whatever way we like. Knowing that I was in dis-ease with my victim self and that I believed I could only know God through being sick, I now have a choice to create a different reality through believing something else. With that knowing, I choose to believe that I can know God simply through being happy and joyful, rather than through experiencing darkness. And that was what my angels showed me that day. A beam of truth, a beam of light.

For about a month after that day, I continued to experience coming and going of my allergies. But each time my allergies returned, I would affirm my new belief, connect my heart with Source, and my allergies would always go away the next day. I had no fear of it as the experience also made me see how the physical body is nothing more than a vehicle that holds my Spirit Self, that aspect of my Self which is always one with God. The I AM presence, as many New Agers would call it. Allergies are now permanently gone and I have regained my power as a Co-Creator of my reality. Our beliefs always create our realities. What do you believe? And what are you creating?

The Creation of Purple Ray Essence - January 3, 2007

While I was in Coronado Island, San Diego (where I created Gold Ray) in November, Spirit advised that my second essence, the Purple Ray, is to be created within the next month. So, as a diligent liaison down here on Earth, I waited for further guidance. On the Wednesday before my trip to Guilin with my family, I received a message that I will meet the “being” from which the Purple Ray will be created. Following that message, I took with me, to China, all the tools needed to creating a nature essence, which include a big stock bottle half-filled with Brandy for containing the Mother Tincture, a tweezer and a bowl. Not knowing how I would manage to have any private time to connect/channel and create the essence while I travel with a organized tour with my family, I trusted that everything will just happen! On the night of our arrival which was Friday, Spirit told me that the essence is be created on Sunday. Then on Saturday morning, I discovered from our tour guide that we would travel to Yangshou, a town 60 km from Guilin city center, on Sunday, which made perfect sense to me as Yangshou is highly renowned for its scenic beauty and is probably a much less polluted place than Guilin of which the chance of finding pure energies for creating essences would be much higher. Then on Saturday, while my family and I were hanging out underneath a relatively big banyan tree next to a scenic spot, one of the tour guides suddenly remarked to us that there is a famous banyan tree in Yangshou that is 1,400 year-old! I knew instantly that that is exactly the tree that I need to connect with in order to create Purple Ray! My heart fluttered with excitement and anticipation, while at the same time, my stomach was filled with butterflies as I also discovered that visiting that 1,400 old tree wasn’t part of our travel itinerary. Spirit confirmed to me that I will be guided to the tree and that everything will work out smoothly. Interestingly, both my parents were picking up my vibes and were more keen to visit the tree than even I was! The other thing that perplexed me was how I would be able to make an essence from the tree with limited time (specifically I wasn’t sure how I could put its leaf in a bowl of water underneath the sun for hours when we would be traveling from place to place). To this issue, Spirit told me that I will understand fully when I see the tree. Great.

The thought of visiting the tree hovered in my mind nonstop. I decided to surrender and trust that it will all happen as divinely orchestrated. The next morning we followed the tour group as planned without any sign of seeing the big Banyan tree. Then during lunch, our tour guide told us that we would be going to West Market for one hour of shopping and Spirit immediately whispered in my ears that I will not be going to West Market, I will be going to see the tree during that time. Then I told my father I would really like to see the Banyan tree and my father immediately arranged with the tour guide for my family to make a slight detour from the group to visit this tree which was, to no coincidence, only 10 minute cab ride from West Market – the beautiful works of Spirit of course!

My encounter with the tree was absolutely amazing! First of all, this tree is HUGE. The whole land area it covers probably spans about 20 to 30 meters in radius. The tree is fenced as it is made into a tourist spot and only the locals were allowed near the tree on the 1st and 15th of each month on the Chinese calendar for rituals. Initially I was afraid to break the law so I stood at the fence diligently and tried to tune into the tree from afar. Then my father came over and told me to just go inside to touch and talk to the tree. He arranged with the security guard who kindly agreed to let me near the tree. So for about 20 minutes, I was running around next to the tree, snapping photos and connecting with it while everyone else were appreciating it from outside the fence! When I first tuned in to the tree, the tree showed me a very powerful image – a swirling vortex energy force which I immediately knew represented the force of Creation. Then with its wise old voice, it whispered to me, “What is it that you want to create?” Then it continued, “I have asked you to bring your essence-making tools only to show you that you in fact do not need them at all. For what is in me is also in you, for we are made of the same life force energy that created all of this universe.” The insight gave me a big “AHA”! I knew then that the energy is for manifestation and that one simply needs to be connected with the Creative force that is latent within each and one of us, in order to manifest all of our heart’s desires. And in the process of connecting with this Creative force, we are also growing up to our full glory as a Co-creator with Source, whereby every word we speak, every action we take, is a pure expression of God him and herself. From the tree’s message, I also trusted that I didn’t need to necessarily make an essence out of the tree physically and that I will be guided to anchoring its energy at a later time when all is ready. The energy was so powerful it literally blew me away for the rest of the day. I was so mesmerized by its strength and mystique and its connectedness with the Universe. Later that night, the tree visited me again in my sleep and triggered several intense dreams. I am sure it was already working with me unconsciously to assist me in manifesting whatever it is in my soul plan.

When I returned to Hong Kong, I kept getting visions of creating an etheric energy portal between the tree and my third eye in order to anchor the energy when the timing is right. Then on Christmas Eve, Spirit told me definitively that the Purple Ray is to be created exactly at noon on Christmas Day, 2006. Shortly before noon on Christmas, I downloaded the instructions of creating the essence, which involved creating sacred space, doing a few chants, connecting with the devic realm including Pan, and opening an etheric energy portal between the tree and my third eye and then directing the energy into the Mother Tincture bottle. Spirit recommends one to set an intention on specifically what one wants to manifest prior to using the essence. My sense is that it is most effective to focus on manifesting one thing each time one works with the Purple Ray, but of course, there is no golden rule, so go with your intuition whatever it is! Anyway, I’m so excited to share this new creation with you and again, I hope to work with Nature more and more to serve you better!

The Creation of Gold Ray Essence

The Gold Ray essence was created preceding a time of profound changes on my spiritual path. I first became aware of the uniqueness of the Eucalyptus "paper" tree in Karen's backyard when Karen remarked to me how much their papertree has grown over the course of only a few years. Unlike any other tree in the vicinity, this tree has taken on a shape and form very symbolic of the ever expanding energy of the Source, which is infinite and limitlessly abundant. Physically speaking, the tree has grown to an enormous size with its branches sprawled out, almost like wrapping themselves around the house behind it in a protective way, such as the arms of a strong and nurturing mother. I then went over to the tree to connect with it, by wrapping my arms around one of its major branches. Within seconds, I could feel an instant flow of love into my heart space which caused me to be in tears of joy! I could feel the tree's happiness and could feel it surrounding me in it as well! Right at that moment, I knew that an essence was to be created from it such that its joy and happiness can be shared with others!

As mentioned earlier, the creation of this essence came during a time that preceded a period of tremendous growth and change on my path. Immediately after this essence was made, I started my backpacking journey in South America where I was finally allowing myself to let go of my psychological backpack which prevented me in all these years from doing what I really want to do with my life; hence, one of the unique trait of this essence is its power to free us of any burdens we may carry in our central column or physical spine that may block us from experiencing deeper levels of freedom and joy. It was also a time in my life where I experienced a very fast expansion in consciousness, through connecting with Mother Earth during my travels, and through cleaning out many levels of repressed emotions in my heart space that were again, blocking me from experiencing greater joy and happiness. Therefore this essence is really about freeing ourselves of burdens and opening our hearts to higher consciousness where we become one with all of creation.

For orders, please write me at ladybugheals@yahoo.com. I look forward to working with Nature in serving you further with future creations of essences.

Working with Our Spirit Guides, the Angels, the Ascended Masters and More... - October 15, 2006

Today I plan to write about a very fun topic, to share my fun experiences of working with a number of my own spirit guides, who have so very lovingly assisted me on my path since the dawn of it all. Everyone of us has Guides from the other realm since our birth, and some Guides join us at different times in our lives depending on our soul evolution and paths. Spirit guides can be an angel, an Archangel, an Ascended Master (referring to beings who were once human but have ascended, such as Jesus Christ, Mother Mary, Mohammed or Serapis Bey), a deceased loved one or any deceased person who has crossed over who may know us as a soul and simply wants to assist you from the other side. Many of you are probably already constantly connecting with them without being aware of it. For example, you may have a particular liking for a certain deity, such as you love going to the temple to pray to Kwan Yin, or you’re Catholic and feel a strong connection to Jesus. Spirit guides like to make their presence known to us in very subtle ways, as they’re always looking to guide or assist us in some way. Specifically, they look to assist us in our evolution, in gaining understanding from our third-dimensional realities, or they simply want to make us feel more loved. Working consciously with our spirit guides can be very fun and healing. I want to share some of my personal stories of how I connected with my spirit guides because they have brought me so much wisdom, so much love and so much understanding. And I hope that through sharing these stories, I can inspire you to also see that you can connect with them at any time and place.

One of my Guide is an Ascended Master, Siddharta Gautama the Buddha, as you may know, he was once an Indian prince who decided to meditate under a bodhi tree and later ascended to become the Buddha. While I was traveling alone for the first time in Peru, I felt extremely lonely for the first few days in Lima. My impression of Lima is that it is a very gloomy, polluted and not very safe city. I felt so lonely being all by myself in this foreign place, that I almost decided to pack my back and head home, scrap my plan of traveling solo in South America. What a pity if I have had done that! But anyway, that’s not the key of the story. So I decided to connect with my guides and understand why this was happening. Siddharta was the first to speak to me for he had much to share about feeling lonely, as he has once followed the lonely path of meditating on his own for many years. He told me to sit in my loneliness, and so I did, I sat in it, meditated on it. Then he told me to understand it. So I kept sitting in the loneliness and after a while, I understood it, I understood why I was feeling lonely, and when I reached this understanding, the loneliness puffed away like it had never truly existed, and for the rest of my trip, I honestly never felt lonely again. So that’s Siddharta, an incredibly wise and loving being, I never forget his teachings from that experience.

Another of my Guide, who I only became consciously aware yesterday that he’s been working with me (so he is a new guide who has just joined my Guidance team), is Ganesh, the half-human and half-elephant Hindu deity. You see a lot of his statues in Thailand, but of course, you don’t need to be physically in Thailand to connect with him, because in the fourth dimension, where all spirit guides exist, there is no time and space. I first worked with Ganesh while channeling for a friend few months ago. Ganesh is one of my friend’s spirit guides and I had a very fun time channeling Ganesh that time. He left quite an impression on me because his energy felt to me, unlike other Guides who I have connected with in the past, more aggressive and forceful. The second time I connected with Ganesh again was when I was climbing Volcan Misti in Peru, my first time climbing a real mountain and that experience was probably one of the most strenuous thing I’ve ever done in my life. He came to me to tell me that I can call on him specifically to help me get up that formidable volcano, for he is a remover of obstacles. The obstacles were really my belief system that I couldn’t make it up that mountain, of which he lovingly dissolved, and despite exerting tremendous physical strength, I completed the climb feeling much stronger afterwards. Then to no coincidence, I channeled him again for another friend two days later, and Ganesh happened to be that friend’s spirit guide as well and had just helped him with a home robbery several weeks ago, and so my friend was extremely excited and intrigued to learn that Ganesh is one of his Guides. My friend has always been drawn to elephants and in fact, he has two big elephant statues in his home. Now I’m aware that Ganesh is also one of my spirit guides, and he is here to help me with my writing and with removing any obstacles in my life, which are really illusions created by my fearful mind.

Anyway, so these our my two more recent and interesting stories of working consciously with my own spirit guides. You can also work with them directly to resolve any issues you may have in any aspect of your life, which may include health, work, career, money, romance, marriage, family and travel issues (even like needing help booking a hotel). I find that people often believe that they need to pray a specific way to higher dimensional beings, or treat them a certain way in order to receive help from them. I know many religious disciples follow strict rituals to connect with higher beings. I don’t disagree with the rituals, as they are powerful ways to focus our intentions when we seek to ask for help from higher beings. But it is not true that if we don’t follow those rituals or pray a certain number of times a day or in a certain way or place, that we cannot get the same help from them. Because first, you need to understand that these beings are energies of pure unconditional love, they resonate at such a high, loving vibrational frequency that in their world, there is no fear, no hate, no anger, no judgment. They love us all so equally and so unconditionally. So rest assured that however you may think you are as a human being, you deserve all the help you can get from them, and that they’re always happy to assist us further on our paths. In a later blog, I'll discuss ways of connecting with them more.

Connecting with Spirit - June 1, 2006

Connecting with spirit is the most beautiful thing. Have you ever heard the wind sing, heard a frog cry, or a rat scream or even a tree laugh? There is consciousness in all things, every particle, every atom, in this universe, has a voice of its own. All things are as alive as we are. Perhaps, not quite the same way, but they are conscious, and they are alive. Feel, with your heart, and let your imagination run wild. The world expands when you allow your perception to go beyond the mundane reality. See, beyond the static. And see, into the unknown, into that vast ocean of spirit, that lies parallel to our everyday reality but is elusive to our limiting perceptions if we are not willing to trust, to trust that, which can only be felt. Smell the wind, and say hello. Walk to a bird and tell her how you feel. Touch the tree next door, and tell him he is missed, that he is beautiful, just like you. The universe awaits us to become aware of that, that which truly is.

Last week, I met a frog on the way to the supermarket. He told me he was angry because of the pollution around the vicinity. Well, I wouldn’t be surprised by that. Ha! On my way out of the supermarket, Mr. Frog leaped ten steps to meet me eye-to-eye, passing me a message that is leading me to an exciting chapter of my life. The Universe always bears gifts, so open your arms to receive. For now, I will keep the message a secret. Until then. I must go.

(Photograph by Michael Chan)

Choosing Between Love and Fear - April 18, 2006

Have you ever been caught in a situation where you have to make up your mind about something but it’s just so hard to decide? Today I was just caught in a situation where I had to decide in a very short notice whether to lend money to a friend or not. My initial reaction was sure, no problem. However, as soon as I committed myself I felt a huge cloud of fear take over me and I was panicking whether that was the right thing to do. I was prepared to tell my friend that I change my mind about helping her. However, just as I was about to do that, I decided to seek counsel who astutely guided me to see the situation from a place of love to aid me in making a better choice. Instead of allowing my head take over me to judge the act of lending money as right or wrong, good or bad, what consequences it could have if I couldn’t get the money back etc.., I focused on how I felt on lending the money and not lending the money. At that moment I started to see the issue for it really was about. I felt that if I choose to not lend the money, I would be choosing out of my own fear, my fear of financial insecurity because I fear I wouldn’t get my money back; while choosing to lend the money, I felt that it was more coming from a desire to help my friend than from any fears. Consequently, I chose to lend the money, one because it felt it would be an act out of love, and second, because I couldn’t let myself choose otherwise since it would mean letting my fear dominate my reality when I could just embrace it once and for all and not have to live under its shadow again in the future. Luckily, as with my past experiences, fears do go away once you become aware of them and are willing embrace them, while the opposite is true if you choose to become their slaves by constantly acting them out in the choices you make.

I’m not saying here that it is wrong to choose out of fear, we’re bound to do that every now and then. But it’s like every thought pattern we hold and every choice we make have a direct consequence on our future well-being, and to choose out of fear, especially when you are aware of the fear itself, is like an ostrich sticking its head in the sand, pretending that everything’s ok when it’s not. And the snowball keeps rolling, until one day the fear becomes so huge (after having been fed for decades throughout your life) that it bites you from the back, since the law of the universe denotes that whatever you fear you create; or, ten years down the road, you find yourself living in a birdcage, because you become so accustomed to not doing all the things that you’re afraid of, that you become a prisoner of your own fears and beliefs.

So next time, when you have to make a difficult choice, take a deep breath, and see for yourself, whether you’re choosing out of fear, or out of love. The result of choosing out of love is liberating, and I will not dwell on the former any further. You know what I mean.

But if you do catch yourself choosing out of fear, that's alright too, it's just an experience. Give yourself a pat on your back for being able to spot it as is. There is always another chance.

"We need to teach the next generation of children from day one that they are responsible for their lives. Mankind's greatest gift, also its greatest curse, is that we have free choice. We can make our choices built from love or from fear." - Elisabeth Kubler Ross

(Photograph taken by someone on Flickr. Lovely isn't it? Check out the butterfly it has a long pale blue tail!)

Letting Go, Letting God - March 26, 2006

Ever since I was very little, I’ve suffered from a shoulder pain on the left side. I remember that it would always hurt when I played the piano. The pain was never unbearable, but it would always be there, whenever I’m just about to forget about it, subtlely creeping on me, as if it had a little voice of its own.

One year in college, after several years of regular teen-age partying craze, my shoulder problem took a sharp turn south… One day, after seeing a physical therapist, my shoulder, along with my entire neck and several vertebrae on my upper back, felt like a stack of cubes unwinding in all different directions. I could feel that each vertebrae was dislocated in a different and funny way, and the result was – sharp shooting pain whenever I try to turn my body in any direction! This pain persisted for months and I got really desperate. I tried many different doctors and pillows and massages. Nothing was helping. At moments the pain was so intense I was going hysterical. Several months later I was diagnosed to have rheumatic heart disease, a disease in which some valve in the heart doesn’t close properly because it has hardened. Wow! My heart was hardening! In retrospect, I see the symbolism behind the illness to be that there was a deep lack of love in my life, so deep that the heart has decided to shut off all flow of energy and therefore grew hard!

I don’t remember the exact time now, but about more than six months later, I met my Chinese bone and “gua sha” doctor, who slowly treated my back and heart problems. For several years I had this treatment, which really worked on me and I was slowly healing. The pain diminished. My heart problem got better. I had enough energy to work long hours and do regular activities. I was told by this bone doctor that, because of the way my back was out of alignment, I wasn't supposed to bend my back backwards. And it really was the case, for, whenever I did try to bend it backwards, it would hurt a lot and feel like the bones have gone completely berserk and I would need to get it adjusted again. So for about six years now, I did not allow myself to engage in any risky backbending activities.

About a year ago I met a healer and have since embarked on a journey of tremendous healing and spiritual awakening. There has been many ups and downs throughout the journey, and, although there were moments of seeming darkness, every step was a step closer to more light. My heart and upper back problem (they’re interrelated) surely came up in my healing journey, in fact, it is one of my core issues that needs healing. In short, my heart problem led me to heal my relationship with my mother, which is one of the root causes of my disappointing romantic relationships. The issue with my mother involves my grandmother, for ever since I was a child, I was resentful of the way my mother was treating my grandmother. What I chose to perceive as a child and internalized on an unconscious level, was that my mother was a sinner. And to play “let-me-carry-this-burden-I-am-a-martyr” role, I decided (unconsciously of coz!) to carry her sin on my own back, while carrying loads of resentful feelings towards my mom. When I was a child, I used to stay up all the time at night crying over my grandmother. Looking back, it’s incredible to see how issues can develop into as we grow up!

Recently, I’ve been praying for more healing to my heart. I was becoming impatient with the progress of the recovery of my back pain, as it continued to hurt. At times, I was even losing faith in all this healing work. In retrospect, I understand that there is a divine timing to all progresses in life.

In one of my Rainbow Warrior classes with Eva, this issue came up and I was reminded by Spirit that it is time to set myself free from carrying this psychological burden or "backpack", which does not serve me any longer. The night after that class I had a really vivid dream. In the dream, my mother, grandmother and I traveled together in a train which traversed through a tunnel, and on the train, I was carrying my grandmother on my back. The train came to a stop and my grandmother unloaded from my back. She said to me, “You don’t have to carry me anymore.”

Two days later, I went to a Yoga class. I’ve always had a fear about doing Yoga because of my perceived inability to bend my back, however, my heart’s been telling me to do Yoga for a while, and so I decided to give it one more try. During the class, I asked my spirit guides to give me the courage to do each posture. Then came this simple backbending/stretching posture, and I thought to myself, so if I really screw it up again, I will just go to the bone doctor and get it fixed (and that has been exactly what happened in the past!) As I embraced my fear and performed this posture, I burst into tears of release and relief! The repressed energies in my back were released like a dam broke loose. In my third eye, I saw my spirit guides clapping their hands in the air, they were applauding me for having reached a new milestone of my journey! I walked out of the yoga class with a new body and it’s been feeling like that since.

The journey does not end here. The journey will continue. Sometimes it is fun, sometimes it is not. But again, every step is a step closer to more light. This is my journey, what is yours?

Meditation: Rediscovering Our Eternal Flame - March 7, 2006

Recently I've been reading stuff written by Osho, who greatly advocates meditation. So I thought I'll write a lil' something on my experience with meditation. I first learned to meditate from my Reikidou Naturopathy ("gua sha" as is more commonly called) master who taught us a way to practice Qigong which is basically a meditation that focuses on taking long deep breaths to and from the solar plexus. When I first experienced it, I found it very hard to sit still for more than five minutes. After several uncomfortable attempts, I quickly gave up. It was not until I started to heal myself emotionally and spiritually that I slowly fell in love with the simple act of meditation.

Much has been written on the benefits of meditation. To me, meditation, like my pendulum, helps me reconnect with my true self or inner being. When I find myself feeling a lil' under the weather, I meditate to re-experience that eternal flame of joy within my soul that never sleeps. When I'm under stress or getting emotional or grumpy, I meditate to restore my balance such that I can move forward once again with strength and trust. I like to think of meditation as a way of turning off the mind and turning up the volume of our inner voice. When I find myself unable to make certain decisions in life, I meditate to speak with my inner being for the answer that is most true to myself, myself alone.

Finally, meditation is just great, it doesn't cost any money, it takes up very lil' space (you can sit, lie down or even stand!), it generates great value by making me happier and lighter afterwards, and it doesn't actually take up any time of all - it functions in a space of non-time. Because when we meditate, we become fully conscious of the present moment, we experience pure existence which is only possible in the Now. The present moment isn't actually a function of time, there's no continuum to it. The Now is constantly moving into the future, and moving away from the past. It is not the past or the future, it is all there is. The only way to experience it is to be in it, with it, become it. So next time, when you meditate, let your concept of time fall away, and focus on how you feel in this very precious moment which only you can grasp. And when you start to feel your heart swell with joy, you know you're home.

Looking back, I can hardly conceive that I once found meditation to be difficult. But that is only normal and I'm sure many of you must have felt this way sometime in your experience with it. It's almost like saying that sometimes, everything around us is so distracting and overwhelming (busy schedules, other peoples' needs, media's injection of fear in us, etc..) that it becomes even difficult to just be ourselves. Because meditation is sort of a way to just BE ourselves, completely, 100%, without any distractions whatsoever.

Let me share a quote with you by Osho before I part on this topic - ".. when a person meditates he starts flowering. If he is a painter, he will become a great painter. If he is a poet, then suddenly tremendous poetry will arise out of his soul. If he is a singer, for the first time he will sing a song that is close to his heart's desire. When you are silent, rooted in your being, centered, your talents automatically start functioning... You become spontaneous. You start doing your thing - and now you don't bother whether it pays or not, whether it makes you more respectable or not. It makes you happy, and that's enough. It makes you tremendously joyful, and that is more than enough"

(Painting by Sofan Chan - "Forest of Light")

What is Healing? - February 20, 2006

Since I started healing myself, I have had so many healing experiences, from regular energy healing sessions to all kinds of self-awareness workshops, to meditations (group and self), to getting sick (that’s healing too!) and to sitting through events in life that forced me to face many hidden fears. I am not going to discuss the different healing modalities I’ve tried, there are just too many! It is not my point here to discuss them today, for, as Eva has said, and so it is my belief as well, that literally anything on the planet can be healing, so long as you choose it to be...

Healing is a way of living where we consciously choose to look within ourselves for answers to issues in our lives. Healing is living in the moment, rather than in the past or future. Healing is walking closer to love, and farther away from fear. Healing is sitting in pain and understanding it. Healing is kissing your fears and realizing that they are only your illusions. Healing is seeing beauty in the not beautiful and seeing extraordinary in the ordinary. Healing is letting go of something precious, and then having it back triple-fold, because in the process we realize that nothing is ever lost. Healing is becoming vulnerable so that we can become stronger, happier, more peaceful, which is our natural state of being. Therefore, healing is re-becoming our true self.

I believe that suffering exists in this world only for us to learn to heal ourselves. We fall such that we will one day rise again. Therefore diseases are healing, as they teach us to grow, to live in the moment, and to trust. Dying is also healing, because through dying, we are forced to embrace the fear of death and to recognize that we are not separate but connected, whether in one lifetime or another. I've also read that some people like to use death as a motivator of change. Because if you just remember that we will all die one day anyway, then what excuse do you have to not choose to live your life in joy, but choose to waste time molding over the past, which no longer exists, and planning a future, which may not ever exist?

Healing is not to be sought, healing seeks us, and it is courage that allows us to see it.

(Photograph by Vicky Yeung)

Is this Another Groundhog Day? - February 5, 2006

If you have seen or remember the movie “Groundhog Day”, it talks about a man who had to relive the same day in his life over and over again until he undergoes a transformation of self-discovery. Reality is sorta like that too. Things seem to repeat themselves over and over again. We tend to attract similar situations or people into our lives. We get pissed off or annoyed over similar things, we get cheated in a similar way, we worry about the same things, we injure the same ankle over and over again etc… So why is it that life has chosen to be so ‘predictable’ in some sense? If I were to tell you, that life or our higher self (an unconscious part of our psyche which I identify as the driver of our conscious reality) is always looking out for us, serving us in our best interest, and that therefore these seemingly boring repetitive patterns in our lives are merely their best attempts to keep us in balance, will you believe me or shun me to hell?

Every one of us has chosen to come to this planet to learn some lessons, therefore even though some may seem to be happier, smarter, richer, luckier than others, we all have our fair share of challenges. Unfortunately, life isn’t exactly like a school course where whatever we are supposed to learn are spelled out on a syllabus on the first day of class. But even in school, we may get pop quizzes with test questions that blow us away if we haven’t paid attention during lectures. And life does also sorta function in a similar way here. We have to pay attention to what is going on around us. We have to be aware.

Repetitive patterns are clues to our core challenges. It’s our higher self’s or "fate’s" way of letting us know that something’s out of balance of which the underlying issue wants to come to light. In order to restore balance in our lives such that the pattern can be broken, we gotta first become aware of the issue, understand it, learn the lesson behind it, and finally, let it go. Sometimes the lesson may be to forgive someone or to forgive yourself through releasing self-guilt for something you may have done in the past. Sometimes the lesson maybe to learn to speak out our feelings, for the sake of learning to love ourselves enough that we are willing to speak up despite risking rejection or humiliation by others. For example, injuring our foot has to do with us having fears of moving forward in life because the foot is responsible for moving ahead. Recognizing this fear and then releasing it by learning to trust that everything will be ok in the future will help to restore balance into our lives. The list goes on and it is for you to explore what your challenge is. Awareness, my friend, is the key. Until then, time stands still.

Why Do People Get Angry? – January 30, 2006

People who get angry easily really have a lot of sadness inside, because anger is actually a mask of fear or sadness that hasn’t been expressed or released. Remember the last time you were angry at someone, was that someone you cared about or loved? Or was that someone whose view of you you cared very much about? I get angry at my parents for telling me to do something that I don’t want to, because deep down I feel threatened that if I didn’t do what they wanted me to do, they wouldn’t love me for the way I am. Sometimes lovers get angry at each other easily because when we are in love, we care alot about how much love our partner has for us, so whatever they do that threaten to say that they don’t love us, could make us feel angry. Or if a good friend decides to keep something from us, we get angry because we are scared our friend no longer treasures us as her good friend. Feelings are afterall feelings and cannot be easily explained by the rational mind. Some of us are more sensitive and others are not. There is no right or wrong to how we feel about something, we are the way we are. So next time if someone you care about get angry at you, tell them it’s ok they are angry (even if you really don’t get it!), rather than trying to explain why they shouldn’t be, and watch for the wonderful miracle - their anger will go away much more quickly! Because all we need is a bit more love and acceptance, however way we choose to express ourselves.

(Photograph by Vicky Yeung)